Thursday, March 13, 2014


I don't know what I'm doing.
It feels like I'm in a dark cave searching for that speck of light.
I would have to struggle through the darkness.
I would have to bump myself into the walls of the cave.
I would have to stumble and fall.
I would have no choice but to get hurt.
No human can create light out of no where.
Therefore we must search for it.
It might take a couples of minutes, an hour, days, weeks, months, years, or maybe never...
But I'd rather get up and search for that light than stay where I am just waiting for that light to find me.
I'd rather die trying because when I do, I have hope.

Hope is everything. Hope is THE light. The light that makes us move.
The light that brightens up tomorrow.
We have tomorrow.
We have hope.


  1.'s a fortune cookie :)

    "In the realm of ideas everything depends on enthusiasm... in the real world all rests on perseverance."
    ~ Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe

    Sincere prose! You've transcended over materialism and gained wisdom.

  2. That 's what I mean baby! unleash it ! Go and live life. Be happy...

  3. keep on searching. search where it really comes. and you'll live your life to its fullest~ i know it's hard. it consumes you everyday~ you can do it! :)

  4. Persons are born and they die eventually.
    It's the cycle of life, it's inescapable.
    Somewhere in that grand cycle is an individual.
    An individual who thinks, feels, laughs, and cries.
    As complex as this individual person is,
    he is only a speck in the grand scheme of things.

    What then is one's purpose?
    Is it only to live and eventually die?
    That's a terrible way of seeing life -
    It's like the gift of life is instead a curse.

    But no, the creator could not have been a deranged genius.
    Certainly there is purpose in life other than living and then dying.
    Find that purpose however you may please.
    And when you do, do it and never cease.

    Keep looking Ms. Jinri, you'll find it.

    1. Yes. Life would be a curse if it were just living then dying with no purpose.

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  6. Kotowaru and it's just a waste of time.

    It's foolish to share your talents to someone who will just steal them and will corrupt your whole being.

    1. Everything-whether bad or good is a learning experience for me. Sometimes being so called "foolish" can be helpful. Maybe not now. But someday my foolishness would have made me a better person

    2. How can you be a better person when the head of the company you worked with is a rapist?

    3. It's not foolishness to commit a mistake but what makes it a foolishness is if the mistake is repeated. Also, it's idiocy that you already knew that it will be a mistake but you still did it.

    4. Repeated especially if it's something of a big mistake.

    5. Yes I agree. People make mistakes,at first you learn. Not repeating the mistake is more important

    6. Just do what your heart tells you is the right thing to do...

  7. For me, I don't need to experience something dishonorable to the public that will be passed on to my descendants. I don't do things I'm hesitant to do that I know I'm gonna regret later. I'd rather go with the hard-long way job than a big-easy money job.

  8. In life, there is hope. And that hope is the shining light that will guide us through our mortal lives. It is up to us to search for that light in order to reach that life-long goal.

    And yes, there's always light at the end of the tunnel.

  9. In the video game franchise God of War (which was loosely based off Greek mythology), Kratos, the protagonist, destroys the Olympic pantheon using Hope, being the last virtue to have been trapped in Pandora's Box. Kratos slew all the gods, believing that he had Hope at his side, but in the end it was implied that Hope did not exist as a "weapon" as he had envisioned it to be, but in himself. He essentially made a self-fulfilling lie, a placebo, but it illustrated how humans can deceive themselves into motivation.

    Your writing style is very stream of consciousness-like. I'm surprised that with the ubiquity of social media you still find time to blog, Jinri, but that's a good thing. Separate the chaff from the wheat, as they say.

  10. I often wondered if God(or a higher power) would judge me for what I have done in my life. Rather than if I did good or bad things, but if I had lived my life to its fullest. I thought that if I only did what was good(according to some guide/book) it would have been enough. I fear that what I believe for many years may have been wrong.
    I ask now (from my inner self) for the courage and bravery it has kept for decades. To not live bounded by fear, to strive to become great, to love. To aim for the stars, and if ever to stumble and fall on the moon...