Friday, February 21, 2014

This is my story.

Im a strong independent woman. I've been through typical asian parents expecting me to get straight A's all throughout school. I've been through moving to a completely different country at a young age forced to adopt to the culture. I've been through the pressure to get into med school in one of the most educational competitive countries,S.Korea. I've been through the culture of hierarchy in Korean med school which was new to me because I've lived in the Philippines almost all my life. I've been though having to quit med school after 2yrs because I truly believed it wasn't the path for me through which my parents disowned me for a while. I've been through starting a new life in a city I knew no one, Manila.  I've been through people telling me I'm too fat to be a model. I've went to hundreds of auditions, all to be turned down. I've lived in a house with no furniture for more than a year because I didn't have money. All I had was a mattress and a box to put my clothes in. I've been through countless heart breaks. Guys who used me and just threw me away like I was nothing to them in the first place. I've been through break ups with friends I've known since elementary days just because of stupid misunderstandings. I've been through having to earn a living for myself in my early 20s. I've been through people calling me names and making up rumors of which I had to go through alone. Every night crying myself to sleep wanting to die at some point. I've been through days in the hospital without my family there to take care of me. I've been through Mo Twister. And because that says it all. I've been through having to decide to take a turn in my career to priortize  education before moving forward. Ive been through having to start from the bottom all over again when things just got easier. Now I can't wait to go through more hardships because that made me the woman I am today.

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  1. Thanks for sharing your story. Good luck in your studies and be what you wanted to be. :)

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  2. good luck idol miss jinri we really are miss you specially in RX everytime when im tunning in..

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  3. Your story is an eye opener. Got nothing but respect for you. I remember reading once that those who go through crucibles in their life come out wiser and better. Your living proof. I admire your effort to start over when you could have basked in all the perks of being a celebrity. Thank you for the autograph before you left. Cheers!

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    1. Appreciate your comment. Especially that you have acknowledged my starting over again. That means a lot. Was a hard decision for me too.

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  4. I know that you are'nt gonna read this but I will say it anyway... challenges are always there It really defines who you are in life... reading your blog and what you have been through in life is such an ispiration to others who are facing difficult times. Just be sure to pray everyday, not for an easy way out of those challenges but to become a better and stronger person to face those challenges

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    1. I truly believe challenges are those that mold you into being "yourself". People who go through them tend to have more defined goals in life. Cheers to challenges :)

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  5. all well ends well, things will sort out fine just stay strong and believe :)

    if life will not offer its hardships its just plain boring and if you feel manila to be a part of home you're always welcome to come back. #jinjas

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  7. after reading this, i've been feeling alot of "feels" about this post. well maybe, there are events here that i can relate to. well, live life to the fullest miss jinri :)

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    1. Feels great that someone can relate to my post and get "feelings" of some sort. Thank you for letting me know. I may not be a great writer but if it made a single person think about their own lives again at some point or of some sort I'll continue this throughout :)

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  8. I don't know why friction occurred between you and Mo (and I know how much of a bully he is) but I think if given a fresh start, you guys could be a great radio counterparts... I know it ain't possible with the situation but in a "what-ifs", it would just be great... (or instead, a pairing with Lourd De Veyra would be wonderful)... stay healthy and happy!

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  9. I've been through rough times all my life. Just when I think things are going to get better, it usually gets worse. Right now I'm going through the toughest of all circumstances (though I know it could get worse). It's kind of comforting to know there are some people (you) who are going through hardships of their own. Eventhough I know I have to get by this alone, I know I am not the only one in this state. My only wish is that all this hardship does not turn you in to an emotionless, jaded person like what it has done to me. It's poison to your system.

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    1. Hardships are there only to make you stronger. Everyone goes through it but not everyone comes out learning and growing from it. Hang in there. You will triumph if you push yourself and never let anyone stop you from doing so

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    2. A lot of people wouldn't know what we're going through until you tell them. Unfortunately, most of them wouldn't know what to say, do or just wouldn't give a rat's ass since they haven't gone through what we've been or are still going through. Thanks for the chat. I know you feel what I feel. I also know how it's like to be disowned, taken for granted and to live out of a suitcase (or box). I feel you too. As I would always say, this too shall pass. Peace.

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  10. Things turn out best for people who make the best out of the way things turn out. Have a happy life Jinri :D

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  11. When you feel like things are broken and falling apart, God is managing your life. Things are actually falling into place, just like a jigzaw puzzle.stay blessed miss Park!

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  12. i thought its just some crap but now i know who jinri park is, miss jinri as long as you're happy on what are you doing, no one can judge you. your story touch us because not lot of people can handle your situation and the hardship you've been through.

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  13. As Steve Jobs would say, LIFE is all about the journey. Be well!

    http://bbw-nonomaca.blogspot.com/2013/08/jinri-park-fhm-autograph-signing.html

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  14. It is truly inspiring to hear someone share thier struggles and journey in life.. It's more facinating to get to know that you are not alone out there and someone shares your story..

    The way you shared this and even naming a person from your life truly shows that you have accepted who you were and is ready to move to who you will be... One word for me to describe you "RESPECTED"!

    I am one of those who have a huge crush on you, but if I ever get the honour to get acquainted to you someday, I'd rather work my way to be in your friend zone area than work my way to your pants..

    And since you mention you are starting up again fresh, I would really want you to check on the movie "The Secret by Rhonda Byrne" It's helping me get a better life now, and I'm sure it will for you, just check it from youtube...

    Hope to meet you someday!

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    1. Thank you! Its only when you accept your faults and who you really are that makes you grow :)

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  15. Being independent in other country isnt that easy, Feels weird at first but really need to cope to survive. Nothing more important but to follow the Bible in your entire life (my opinion)
    Ecclesiastes 12:13
    Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man.

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  17. You got an interesting backstory, Jinri. And it is a good way on reintroducing yourself to the readers, the REAL YOU. Sometimes, it's not the destination but the whole journey that you have went through is what matters. Keep it up and keep it real!

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    1. Trying to keep it real. Its a constant struggle :)

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    2. I couldn't agree more. And as the saying goes: "The first step is always the hardest." Ü

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  18. That's why you're my idol Miss Park Jinri :)

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  19. What a wonderful journey you have miss Jinri, hardships is what makes us stronger, more independent, reliable, responsible and open minded, and you went all through hardships and that's what makes you a MODERN WOMAN. and also there was a quote from Thomas Wayne of Batman Begins, "Why do we fall bruce? So we can learn to pick ourselves up".

    Miss Jinri fighting!! When you're down and sad think of those people who supported you, those people who made you what you are right now. Especially us fans from Philippines we got your back! :)

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  20. Who would have thought you had that kind of life. Your story reminds me of my own struggles when my life is at lost, took a lot of wrong turns, when I was like at the bottom of a barrel finding my way to the top. Starting all over again is truly difficult, but I have to say it won't be as difficult as it was before coz' you've been there. Your hardships made you a better person. You've been through worst and I think that experience is your best weapon in battling the upcoming challenges. Good luck Ms. Jinri!

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    1. Thank you for that. I try to keep challenging myself

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  21. late at night i opened my laptop and search for your name, i ended up clicking on your blog and read your story. who would've have thought that you had that kind of life before. your story seems to inspire me more to work hard for my family. continue to inspire more people through your experiences. this simple blog is a simple way to remind those people who are having difficulties in life..
    goodluck on your career! godbless and take care! =)

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  22. Hi Ms. Jinri, I hope you could notice me. I've been trying to reach you through different social networking websites and been searching contacts that could help me get a reach of you. I respect that most of them would not be able to give me your contact especially most of them told me your in Korea right now. I would not want to comment here at your blog at first but I really want to surprise my brother and I was left no choice but to do this.. I'm so sorry if what I would comment here is not connected to your blog. But, i just want to ask a favor from you. I know you're busy and you're in Korea but if you could just spare a little time to make a video greeting for my brother since he's turning 21 this coming march 30 and I've been starting to contact you last Feb.. But I think you do not notice my tweets and comments on your Ig, even my messages to you on Fb. I hope this time you would. My brother's really a super duper fan of yours. You're all of his pictures, videos and even the theme of his phone and filenames. He also loves collecting magazines of you and loves going to your signing but never had a glimpse of you since it's always too late for him. That's why I thought of having a video greeting of you as my birthday gift and surprise for him. He has done a lot for us and your video would really make his birthday special. I hope this time you could notice me and send a video greeting for him. My brother's name is Renzo Miguel. You could contact me and hoping tat you coud send a video on my email: lian.argan@gmail.com I really hope this time you could notice me. God Bless! :)

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