Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Disease with no vaccine

Rain pours down, you turn on the radio and some emo 90’s song starts to play. It goes like this:

“Unbreak my heart, say you’ll love me again, undo this pain that you caused when you walked out the door, and walk out of my life…”

Then it hits you. “Wow, I’m single. I won’t be able to watch that new movie that’s out next week with her/him.” At first you can’t really believe what just happened. It hasn’t sunken in yet and it seems to be manageable.
Clock ticks midnight. Emo hour starts. You crash. Crash so hard you wish you could just die. That the world is crumbling down right in front of you. You feel you have no longer a reason to go on. That life will never be the same without her/him.  You try to text her/him, call her/him just waiting for a reply. It doesn’t come. You ask yourself, “how can she/he move on so fast?” “Did she/he even love me?”
Because you aren’t strong to keep all these emotions to yourself, you start posting quotes on twitter or rant on facebook. You re-tweet emo tweets. You annoy the shit(excuse my language) out of your friends and followers.

Nothing lasts forever. Forever’s a lie. All we have is what’s between hello and goodbye.”

You drown yourself in alcohol, which makes it worse. You are an emotional wreck. You try to get yourself to find someone else. It doesn’t work. She/he keeps popping up inside your head. You tell yourself “I will never find someone like her/him”
What do we call this? It’s a break up. Yes, you hear this word in every media we can possibly find. Songs, movies, books, magazines, internet and yet no one has mastered the art of breaking up quite perfectly, well the most of us. It’s like a disease we can’t seem to cure. It may not be contagious but if you get it, you will be sick. So sick that you would rather consider death. Some of which actually do…You know what’s worse? It can happen several times. It can happen anytime. Ok, wait for it…

The worst part is, you can’t prevent it. There is no vaccine to break ups.

You enter this battlefield called relationship with no weapon. Whether you are the one that breaks up with the person or not, you will always lose in this battlefield called relationship just because you have no protection against the enemy. The enemy can be anything. It isn’t necessarily your bg/gf. You can never win but there is one other route to it…you can continue. Continue fighting for it. This can be one battle that will last you a lifetime.
So you want to know how you can get over this break up. How to move on from it. How to cure it.
Here it is.
Prepare for it.

There may not be a vaccine but there are precautions.

There are ways to some how prevent this disease we call break ups. You know it. You just don’t do it.
It’s simple. Here’s an example. If you don’t want to get sick so easily I would do what is called a “healthy living”. Eat healthy food. Work out. I wouldn’t go out during a typhoon and dance in the rain although it sounds quite fun to me, but the point being “not to get sick.” It’s the same.

All the complicated things in life have the most simple answers and solutions to it J

Me, being a person who bleeds every month(yes, disturbing right?) may confuse you more after you have read this intro. Stereotyping alert, women are complicated ,thus you would have to think about what you have just read to go “Eureka!” about the answers to breakups. Yes, I hear you. You want to learn more in a less complicated way. Read on from the person who does not bleed every month, Ramon Bautista himself and his newest book, “Help! Ayoko na sa Syota Ko!” to go “EUREKA”(with all caps!) instantly. Instant noodle style. (ok I’m so lost myself)

the complicated homosapien that bleeds every month,
the one who doesn’t even understand herself,
Ms. Truth. And cause my name in Korean means exactly that.

Thursday, June 12, 2014

The Ecdemomania

“Traveling alone is not for everybody.”  Whenever I meet my friends, family or even strangers they tell me this. But what makes someone travel alone? Is it their personality? Their background? Their situation? After days of thinking, researching and reading, I’ve come to a conclusion…

People get jealous. It’s the fact that I’ve been traveling for almost a year that get this conversation flowing. First question is always, where did you go? Then comes, who did you go with? Guessing and assuming from this, most people find the destination and the company of the travel the two most important things. And I’m pretty sure everyone has a, what they call, “dream destination”. Places they dream to visit and sights they wish to see. But why? Why don’t you go? I ask. Here comes the long list of excuses I hear every time:
I’m too busy.
I don’t have enough time.
I don’t have money.
I have kids and a family to take care of.
I don’t want to travel alone and no one can go with me.

Like I said, these are just excuses and not reasons. I personally believe everyone CAN travel, better yet, travel alone. Everything in this world has a positive and negative. Traveling alone does too. But the point I’m trying to get to is, don’t let being alone ever stop you from going to places. We live on this earth as individuals. No one will live your life for you, so why wait for someone to travel with you when you can do this by yourself.
Trust me, I had my fair share to excuses. I was also too busy, had no time, didn’t have enough money, and lastly was scared to go to places I’ve never been to, all alone.  Reality is, you can make time, you don’t need a lot of money and you can overcome that fear. You can. You really can. I don’t believe anyone will work 24hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year. Obviously, that’s impossible and every country has its fair share to holidays in a year. Some jobs even have days off. Make use of these times wisely. Even if you only have a day, you can still travel. Plan your rest days in advance. Set dates out to travel ahead of time and if you can even request for some days off. Work in advance and make sure you’ve done everything you need before going on a leave. Don’t just opt for spending another weekend at home. It’s time to explore because you will not be the same person you were after traveling.  

Next is money, which limits to where we can go but can never stop anyone. There are so many options, cheap options when it comes to traveling. Prices also depend on the season, so research is crucial when you are budget traveling. I, myself am a budget traveler. I’ve been to 6 countries in Europe on a tight budget. It can work. Well, it did for me. I went to Europe late January which is the off season, meaning plane tickets are cheaper at this time of the year. The reason being the weather is cold and it is harder to walk around. Plane tickets are an important part of budgeting. Choosing the cheaper airline, picking the tickets with a stop-over and the cheaper dates can play a big role. After comes the motels or inns you wish to stay at. Try staying at dorms, it’s cheaper and also fun because you get to meet new people and can also get tips from the owner. After that comes you just making sure you don’t spend money on unnecessary expenses. See? Budgeting is not that hard after all!

Lastly, the excuse of I can’t travel alone. I’d ask first of all, have you ever tried? Most people will say no. Then, how would you know? If you never tried traveling alone, how would you know if you would hate it or like it? And if you have tried it alone and you hated it, maybe you can try again but this time think about why you hate it. Trying to know the reason might help. Like for me, I was just scared. It was mostly fear. Not knowing can become a huge fear to people. But remember, fear is just an illusion. It doesn’t really exist. After going to a destination I had no idea about, the next became easy. After that, I wanted to go everywhere, even to the most dangerous places. It’s simply that one step. One step and soon you will be running.

You can start with destinations within the country you are living then moving to the continent, slowing making way to different continents. It is going to be hard to start with a country you have no idea about so just take baby steps. You don’t need a grand plan nor have to get stressed about arriving at a certain place at a certain time. Because a good traveler has no fixed plans, and is not intent on arriving, in the words of Lao Tzu. So pack your things and just go. Doing is better than saying. Any day. 

Thursday, March 13, 2014


I don't know what I'm doing.
It feels like I'm in a dark cave searching for that speck of light.
I would have to struggle through the darkness.
I would have to bump myself into the walls of the cave.
I would have to stumble and fall.
I would have no choice but to get hurt.
No human can create light out of no where.
Therefore we must search for it.
It might take a couples of minutes, an hour, days, weeks, months, years, or maybe never...
But I'd rather get up and search for that light than stay where I am just waiting for that light to find me.
I'd rather die trying because when I do, I have hope.

Hope is everything. Hope is THE light. The light that makes us move.
The light that brightens up tomorrow.
We have tomorrow.
We have hope.

Friday, March 7, 2014


Only insecure people bash others. If you aren't perfect yourself STFU. And work on yourself before telling someone what to do. That's all.

Thursday, February 27, 2014

Two hearts

I'd rather be poor & unknown with a big heart

than rich & famous with a cold heart

What's with this thing called "power"?

Lately, I've been watching a lot of law related programs on TV. Watched almost all the episodes in a couple of weeks. It's a program called 그것이 알고싶다. Well, its not really 100% law related but it deals with real situations that happened in Korea where most didn't receive justice or had to go through a lot of trouble to get it.
What I've notice is the faults in the Korean law. Now, there are still a lot that needs to be changed and made. The law needs to protect the weak, but I've seen a lot shit happen to innocent people. That made me overly mad. I don't know why but I just got really emotional. Maybe its normal to feel this way.
The thing that gets me the most was when the so called "rich and powerful" do something that goes against the law, the don't get the equal punishment they deserve. WHY? MONEY. POWER is everything. I'm so sick of rich/powerful people using their money and power to get whatever they want. Well, I would think everyone thinks this way. But what I don't get are the people who receive that DIRTY money. WHY HAS THE WORLD TURNED INTO SLAVES OF MONEY? Its just a piece of paper. You obviously don't need money to be happy, everyone knows that yet can't seem to get that in their head. Its mind boggling because its not a very hard concept.
That show I've been watching has given me both the good and the bad. The good was that it made me realize how I should live my life. Whatever I may be in the future, I must not become a slave to money and power. Never. Yes, you may need a certain amount of it to survive but don't sell yourself for it. Hard work will get you the same money, ya it might take more time and effort but isn't that what makes it an achievement? Don't you wanna be proud of what you've become in the future? Put your head up high and tell yourself you've just made the world a better place by living by the rules?
The bad, has to be that it has given me a negative aspect of the world itself. Definitely the world has its beautiful side but the dark side to me has been growing bigger while the bright side has been shrinking. Its something I wish to change. I'm a nobody right now. I've probably been wasting my life on useless crap and regret not doing something, anything to make the world just a tiny little better. So lately I've been thinking on what I can do. I've come to a conclusion. I need to grow. I need to become a better person. I need to keep learning. I need to keep reading. Studying. Questioning.
I need to have that "power".
Because only with that "power" I so hate, could I make a change in this world.
No one will listen to me. I have no power. What have I done so far? Nothing.
It's only when I become top of my game when people listen. I need to get there.
I know, it sounds so grand with words like the "world" "change" but I don't expect to get the nobel prize. What I mean here is that I just want to be somebody people will listen to and maybe show what I do as a somebody. Not becoming a slave to power. Just a simple say on current social situations. Fight for whats right. This may not be a big change but someone out there will have the courage to move forward because of that one say of someone with power.
Imagine a top actress saying her opinion on a current situation where she may fight for whats right rather than saying nothing. That alone can bring in people to be interested in a situation they never knew about. The media will cover the story. Its as simple as that.
I would like to end this with saying,
Never sell yourself for money and power. It definitely won't make you happy.
Fight for whats right. Grow. Become someone. Then people will listen.

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Jet Lagged

Just some brain fart on possible lyrics

Time has passed and yet I feel jet lagged
What could do the trick
I've tried almost everything
Feels like I'm still there
That place, that moment
Time will heal they say
But it still feels like I'm still living in that moment
When I could sleep, eat, work,

Without you I'm a mess
I feel jet lagged.